Déjà vu

I received a decision from the first school at which I interviewed and...it's a hold.

It seems like it's the equivalent of what happened with the local med school last year in that I haven't been accepted but I'm also not rejected quite yet. From the language of the email, it appears like my application will be reviewed throughout the cycle and if I still haven't been accepted by April/May then I'll either be placed on the waitlist or rejected then.

While I appreciate this school having a bit more transparency than the local med school (it actually told me what's happening with my application instead of staying silent for five months), the results are the same. I'm left waiting without a clear decision one way or the other while this application season drags on.

Woopty doo.

Not nearly as stressed as last cycle

If you couldn't tell from the few pictures I've posted on here, I'm female. Usually, this isn't worth mentioning because we're all the same, with slight differences in anatomy. But when it comes to rugby, women aren't exactly treated as equals. It's very much an old boys club, especially in the referee circles, and women are just now breaking into it. Unfortunately this means that we get shafted based solely on our gender and nothing else.

I've been fighting with the guy who assigns matches in my referee society for many months to get better games so I can improve and advance through the ranks. I haven't gotten anywhere with him and it's reached the point where I really want to quit until I move for medical school and join a different, less dysfunctional referee society.

But I suck at quitting things. So instead, I've been stressing about how the next nine months will shape out, especially since referee elections are coming up soon and therefore, there's a possibility of a change in leadership. When I stress, I dream about my stress, which really doesn't help matters at all.

I asked my roommate what I should do about this because I can't be thinking, dreaming, and obsessing over refereeing all the time. It's draining. Her suggestion: "What about medical school?"

What about it? For some reason, I am so relaxed about this cycle. I have not been stressed more than 5 minutes since I submitted my application in June. There have definitely been times when I've been worried about how this year will shape up, but they haven't lasted long. I have a good feeling about this cycle and the five interview invitations I've received thus far have definitely helped in that respect.

So instead of freaking out about medical school admissions like last year, most of my stress has been channeled to this stupid rugby referee society and its old boys club.

This could all change if none of my interviews turn into acceptances, but for now life is swell at least, with regards to medical school admissions. I hope it stays that way.